WHO AM I?

Thoughts and questions to ponder:

If God isn’t your source of security, your source of strength, your source of life, than what is? What’s filling the void in your life…if it’s not Jesus, than something is, what is it? What gives you your motivation? You don’t have to be addicted to drugs or alcohol to be an addict! How do you deal with your issues? How do you deal with pain, sorrow, guilt? How do behave behind closed doors…the same when everyone sees you? Do you wear masks around others? Who are you really? What’s really on your mind when your tossing and turning at night when your trying to sleep and can’t? Is it easy to take other people’s inventory rather than look at yourself? I bet you feel that the whole world would be lost without you! Where would people be if you weren’t around? You must have all the right answers! Your way is always better isn’t it! If it wasn’t for “those” people or if my parent(s) did a better job or if so and so hadn’t screwed me over, I’d be okay! If people did things my way, everything would be better! Oh…I’m fine, I don’t have any struggles! Complainer, Quitter, Self-Seeker, My-Wayer, Gossiper, Liar, Procrastinator, Fornicator, Drunkard, Drugger, People-Pleaser, Mask-wearer, Controller, Hater, Power Monger, Unbeliever, No-Self-Esteemer, Pity-Partier, Unfaithfuler, Pornographer, Conditional Lover, Resenter, Two-Facer, Luster, Evil-Doer, Worrier, Doubter, Afraid-to-take-a-chancer, Abuser, Negativitier, Hold-People-To-Your-Standards, Racister, Whinner, Tear-Downer, Non-Listener, Cusser, Overeater, Bad-Mouther, Downer, "Someone Else" er, Playing Churcher, Faker, Blamer, Greedier, Isolator, Pridefuler, Adulterer(Physically or Mentally or Emotionally), It’s all about me so whatever! Oh…I’m fine

Procrastinater Hater

Ya ever had “that” dream were you’re standing around and everyone is looking at you funny, you look down and realize that you’re naked. I believe the term that is used is “being caught with your pants down” which is in reference to not being ready, prepared. Procrastination is a beast. How often do you say to yourself, “I’ll get there” or “I get to it” or “I’ll get around to it here in a bit”…and guess what, what ever that “it” is, never happens. Are you ready for Christ’s return? Are you ready to meet the one and only Savior? Or are you waiting to get around to “it”? Are you putting off getting to know Jesus? Are you thinking that you’ll get around to it one of these days? Tomorrow isn’t promised, all you have is this moment right now. Who’s Lord of your life, God or you? There’s only one way to heaven…and being good isn’t good enough because you or I will never be good enough to save ourselves, that’s why Jesus died for you and I, so we could be saved. Jesus made it possible for you and I to live forever, but you have to decide to follow Him. God’s waiting for you…how much longer will you put Him off?
-gravyjmm

Today is Tuesday November 21, 2006, and tomorrow obviously will be Wednesday November 22…which will be my 29th Birthday. In my short narration of life, I have come to several conclusions and I wish to share them:

Tabasco sauce is a necessity

Do not make sport of the older community’s specific health problems because you will obtain them…i.e. especially anything to do with bowel movements

Even though I have never met or never played or never really done anything with the Washington Redskins other than being a fan for life, I still include myself when I use the “we” statement in referring them as if I had anything to do with the team.

You will fall prey to subliminal messages that Wal-mart flings about and you will find yourself there once a week for the rest of your life buying something simply because it’s cheaper there.

You will fall prey to subliminal messages that McDonalds flings about and you will find yourself there once a week for the rest of your life buying something simply because it’s cheaper there...they have convinced my 4 year old son that they are where he needs to eat

Twinkies are still relevant

I used to be able to eat what I wanted to without adding any more weight to my body...that has apparently stopped working for me

Being married...pennies, nickles, and dimes are very relevant

thats all for now
-gravy jmm

Detox

Ya ever notice that the news at night on TV loves to cover fear, death, crap, and chaos. The media loves to feed us garbage. They (the media, society, take your pick) say that sex, turmoil, gossip, fear, fill in the bank, just sells. You ever notice when you eat things that aren’t that good for you, well you feel tired, out of shape, sick, maybe even depressed. Sometimes the best thing to do is detoxify yourself. Eat right, drinks lots of water, exercise and sweat, you just feel better when all the toxins in your body leave. It’s probably a good idea to detoxify from the media and the TV. To quote Jack Nicholson in Batman, “What this town needs in anemia.” Maybe its time for the garbage to be taken to the road.

-gravy jmm

Where ya standing?

Ah separation of church and state! I love irony! A church can’t endorse any political party or they will lose their tax exemption and get in lots of trouble. Prayer has been removed from schools and there’s even talk of removing “under God” from the pledge. There’s a gag order on people mentioning anything about God in school, workplace, and the like. God’s not allowed in the judicial system. And almost all voting takes place in church buildings. How much longer are God’s children going be tolerate their country not standing where it once stood? Peter told the Sanhedrin that He must obey God rather than men and he wasn’t afraid of what might happen to him. What are Christians so afraid of? The Bible warned of these times and these times are upon us now. God’s got my attention, how about yours…
-gravyjmm

Just Blessed!

Forgive me for not blogging in almost a month. Life has been crazy and our internet has been down. This will seem like I just wrote a book but please bare with this long blog, I has been blessed beyond anything all because of God and if your read this I hope you will be blessed by this testimony of God’s loving kindness and the miracles He does everyday.

Today is November 1, 2006 and my family and I just moved into a new home. How we got into this home can only be explained by this: God and God alone. It starts on June 1, 2006 when I went to my landlord and paid him the rent for the place we were staying in. He told me that he had fallen on some hard times and that the taxes on his property were going up and he was going to sell the house that we were staying in sometime in the near future and he would start working on it somewhere within 3 to 6 months. On June 15, 2006 he called me and told me to be out by the 1st of July. So much for being comfortable. Bob (one of my elders at church) and his wife Terry let us move in with them until we found a place of our own. We moved out on June 29, 2006 and on June 30, 2006…we (my wife and I) found out we were pregnant. We had no insurance and we thought we would be eligible for Medicaid. Well I was wrong. As we moved 90% of our stuff in storage and began to settle in Bob and Terry’s place, we though we’d had a plan laid out for us. Again I was wrong. To make a long story a little shorter. What we wanted to save for a place to live didn’t happen because of numerous things: Medical bills for Melissa’s pregnancy, fixing automobiles, paying off some past due bills and the like. We are on a payment program with hospital for our baby girl to be, to pay for the whole birth and stuff. I thought all the money was needed by January, instead it was all due by November 9, 2006. That wiped us completely out. We had to move out of Bob and Terry’s by the 1st of November. Here’s what I want you to pay attention to…I had made a commitment to God that no matter what I be faithful to Him, finically and spiritually. In our worst times, finically, I was told by many people, even those closest to me, “Don’t give any money to God,” but I stayed the course. I believed in my heart that if I was obedient and faithful to God and just did what He wanted me to do, I would be okay. I was facing the possibility of being homeless with my wife, son, and baby to be but I stayed to the course and held to my commitment to God. I trusted God wouldn’t let my family be homeless and was encouraged that if God can speak the world into existence in 6 days, my problems are nothing for Him to deal with. I had to be out on Friday October 27…on Wednesday my mom called me told that there was this house for rent, I had looked at dozens of house and nothing worked out so I wasn’t going to go besides I had no money, but something to me to check it out. That something turned out to be the Holy Spirit because when I checked out the house it was exactly what we needed and so I called the Landlord and he told me he needed the money by today which was $1700. I didn’t have a nickel, seriously. I had found out that people had given money for my family and I for housing…it was exactly what we needed. We had to be out by Friday October 27, 2006 and I had the keys to this house on Thursday October 26 2006. God did for me what I couldn’t do and He honor my commitment to Him. As an added bonus, I have been surrendering my baby to Him on a daily basis and before this little girl is even born, she has everything she needs. God is so good and He has blessed me so much and I hope this story encourages you to walk and talk with God and trust Him with all your heart and no matter what…stay obedient to Him. Life is painful and God is great all the time. Thanks for listening.

-gravyjmm